Bleeding heights

It is very difficult it is.

It is very difficult to be yourself, specially when so many around you are themselves. It could had been great if everyone had their identification to know precisely who is what.

But because life is very little complicated, it just needs to have to spice it up with another and another needs, of search who you are.

Is there any need to be yourself? The question what do you mean arises.

Who actually are you? Do you have a perfect pedigree background? A well established no failures family? Have you ever had bad in your life? If your answer to this questions yes, then who are you?

Well, you are a member of the family. You have your name identifications and other aspects which identify you, as you. Where are you? What is your current state of social hierarchy?

Are you a boss, do you have a managerial position? Do you get paid a managerial salary and receive managerial upgrades, love, affection and support? If you answer yes to most of this questions, then who are you?

Do you want to grow emotionally, spiritually, raise up in your education, getting information upgrades, while consistently doing the same thing over and over, which is the labour blue coral level? Then who are you?

Do you want to get pay rise, being acknowledged at your job, at home, among friends, but constantly doing the same thing? Yes, you are probably excellent at what you are doing, and you are enjoying it. But certain improving methods take time, or don't take time at all, simply, because it considers all the time you had been doing your excellent without any acknowledgment. It is very difficult, almost impossible to surprise any one at the repeatable consistency level, regardless it is managerial position or labor.

it is all the same, every day is the same. Nothing is happening, no one and nothing new is coming in, neither nothing wrong is coming out. You are at full stack, absolute stop. Then what?

What? When? Where? How? Maybe is not sure. And that's your stuck.

Getting higher, needs a reason. It always puts ahead the question why?

Why do you need to be promoted? Why do you need pay rise? Why do you need to learn something new? Why do you want to rise your live standards? Why don't you have money? Why do you feel stupid? Why do you have a messy life? Why do you have problems?

But you don't have problems, neither do I.

Giving a reason needs also a reason, most of us will never ever notice there is a need to rise up. Realising there is a better level of existence might get to the dreamer tag. It is all just an illusion, your whole life was an illusion, making your dream of illusion as bad as your reasons, and then effecting your reality wrongly. Of course, it is always in our heads.

The experience proves this kind of theory wrong, but supports the idea of reasoning, which at some points will not accept the most logical possible reasoning. Requiring, to place an effort into finding different receivable for your reasons. The head and the listeners, those who can process your logic with ease rather than endlessly explaining your needs for existence the way you desire to be and all the great you should had been possessing. Instead, of being advice to check out your possessions.

Life can be cruel, some people might say.

Actually it is not life is cruel, it only has more reasons to be cruel than being gently kind. With gently kind it is always requires to get more than one opinion over the gentleness, because what's kind and gentle to one, is aggressive and rude to others. Specially when its coming from men of the guys, but also from females. No need to be chief at someone else's kitchen, feeling unwelcome, down and neglected. Life is not about cooking and washing dishes on the other side, life is about considering the existence of each other. When the consideration of existing at a way more than certain basic tasks require, it doesn't not make another person in the debt of the decision over another. Moreover, if someone is being neglected at work, disrespected, without any appraisal policy, it is better to look for a job somewhere else, or focus at developing the higher self out of working hours, specially when you are not even getting paid for your appraisals, because there is no reason.

Stay at the better self and keep in mind the noises disappear, just as they came. The same with some people, they come and go away from your path, but your achievements will remain, regardless if the decision makers of some moments in your life, currently are not your reasonable receivables. Have different ones, have better ones.